Perhaps the novelty has worn off. Perhaps this town, this experience is only exciting for a certain length of time. Maybe that time is up and so now I am only aware of the less than ideal circumstances.
Perhaps our schedule is really getting me down. If we continue on the way we've been I believe our schedule with very little time for each other will make me to feel very lonely. We've already made a little adjustment toward the better and I hope that we will continue to be aware that time together is very valuable.
I have little motivation to do housework. I want to be busy but something in my mind is holding me back. I'm frustrated that every evening is scheduled with something for one of us and every day one or both of us is working.
I'm frustrated still that yesterday, the first day off we've had together in a while, I was called in to work. And you might say that I could have said no, and while that is true it would have really put a strain on the workplace that I didn't want to create. You see there is almost nobody to fill in when someone is sick.
I didn't envision our time to work out this way. And while I try to make the best of each day and each situation I'm finding that harder to do this week.
I pray for God to give me the strength to persevere and the wisdom to know how to be the best help to my husband. I pray for God to forgive me as I am less than appreciative of what I have at this moment. I pray for God to show me the joy in each day. Amen.
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